Doctor Appointment Update

So remember in the last post how I said we've had no luck getting those two lines on the pregnancy test? And we've been trying since January? Well I went and talked to my OBGYN about it to see what he thought.

My husband Sam thought we might have been seeing him prematurely but the doctor said that typically after 8 months of trying couples will come in and talk with him (and that's what we are at).  We talked about how I don't think (or feel) that I'm "infertile" and that typically they don't term that until you've been trying for a year. He went over all of our options. This month I'm using the fertility tests to know when I'm ovulating and then on day 21 of my cycle we are running a bunch of blood tests. Testosterone, progesterone, prolactin, thyroid, and fasting blood glucose. I think that was it? One of the blood tests will tell me exactly when I "ovulated" and then we will compare it with what my home fertility test said and see how accurate it is.

If that comes back normal... then there are a couple of surgical interventions (I should remember the name but I forgot). One of them they send some die through your uterus and take x-rays to make sure your tubes and ovaries are patent, the other surgery they actually have to put you under and they make some incisions and laproscopically see if you have some endometriosis going on. I didn't know this but he said 40% of cases where women are having trouble getting pregnant are actually because they have undiagnosed endometriosis. I didn't know this as well, the only way to diagnosis it is by surgery. Crazy huh? It doesn't show up on any kind of imaging.

I don't know if I have endometriosis. I guess one of the symptoms is "painful cycles" but WHO doesn't have painful cycles? Seriously who? Actually don't tell me because I may want to kick you in the shins. ;) I kid I kid.

And then the other option is of course clomid or another drug like it. They both basically make you ovulate more. BUT if I'm already ovulating then there's no point in taking it. Unless I wanted quadruplets. WHICH I ASSURE YOU I DO NOT. You'd have to send me to the mental institution in that case.

So anyway, if it shows up that I'm not ovulating this month then I could start clomid. If I do ovulate this month then they typically don't let you start clomid until a year of trying. So this month will be month 9.

Honestly, I'd love to be pregnant but I'm not DISTRAUGHT that I'm not yet, ya know? It's not eating away at me. At least not constantly... if you talk to me after I'm two weeks late next cycle and still not pregnant it might be another story.

Sam and I talk about how it's not unusual to wait this long for a baby... we know amazing couples who had to wait years! This is what I compared it to though... if you lose your grandpa/grandma it's hard. Knowing that every other human in the world will eventually lose their grandpa/grandma doesn't necessarily make it any more easier. Ya know? It's your individual story. Your individual loss. Your individual trial. Some days are still hard.

I have some sweet friends and family who are pregnant and I think are on edge around me... thinking that their pregnancy will make me sad. But THEM thinking that is what makes me sad! One thing that I think is unique about me is that I rarely get jealous... ever! I couldn't be more happy for my friends/family who are expecting... I can't wait to meet their little ones! And that's the honest truth. I've always thought that, even when I was on the opposite ends of things... when I was the one who got pregnant the first month. Other women's pregnancies have nothing to do with me and our individual situation... why would I be anything but happy for them, ya know? I love seeing their cute little baby bumps and that's the honest truth!

Anyway, that's about all I have to say right now. Send baby dust our way! Jake is ready for a sibling... and I'm ready for him to have one too.

xoxo Britney
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These pictures were from 4 years ago when we first started dating. It's crazy how much we've been together for since then!